valentine's day reborn...

i am sure i am not actually allowed to publish this National Geographic image.

i hate to admit it but for most of my life i've been one of the vast crowd that swears by hating valentine's day for any and all reasons. it is a hallmark holiday, we say. it is stupid. hearts and candy everywhere... sickening.

and by that we mean, "i hate that i am single and you're not."

also i have never been a big fan of pink. or girly stuff. odd that i would adopt such a girly attitude about valentine's day when i profess to be so... not... girly. or something.

anyway, this year, i'm adopting a new attitude. i have sarah to thank for this partly. she's got a lot of wisdom for her age.

because the fact is, i am a very romantic person and very much look forward to being in love and when that time comes i will probably really enjoy valentine's day.

it's a holiday for lovers. it's a time to focus on each other and remember the little things you may have forgotten about why you fell in love in the first place. it shouldn't be a pressure thing. it should be just another opportunity to show your love for each other. not necessarily through chocolates or whatever. that's not important. but it's never a bad thing to bring that love to the forefront of your mind.

so why would i want to spend my whole life developing this bitter attitude toward valentine's day. it could take away from the enjoyment of it when it becomes my holiday too and not just yours.

besides this year is a vast improvement on some other v-day's i've had. i'd rather be in no relationship than in the wrong one, right? right. Praise God.

in the meantime...

my Bridegroom is sweet. and He loves me.

so thanks, sarah, for giving me a bit of perspective. and more importantly, thanks Jesus, for being the first and last lover of my soul.

ugh. i just reread this and it sounds so different than i intended. haha. i hate that.

oh well. you get me.

in honor of my new take on the lovers' holiday, i baked cupcakes last night. they had pink frosting and little heart sprinkles. hahaha.

if you know me, you know that the very existence of these cupcakes is basically anti-kate. not because it's for v-day, but because i'm about as far from being a domestic, bake pink cupcakes kind of girl as you can get.

but hey. it's good to stretch yourself. i can't spend ALL my time playing with guns.

it wouldn't be healthy.